I was worried that, with the end of the holiday season, I would be flooded with a sense of urgency, that I would slip into a dwelling place, stuck on thinking about our adoption without all of the hustle and bustle of the Christmas season to keep me.
And then, it goes on... even while our youngest child is miles away (wasn't that a Poison song??) Life keeps me. Theo, and Emmett. And their Papa. These guys keep me. I have so many to be thankful for.
I can't stop thinking about everyone else, all of you who are expecting your babies, before me. Joey and Norbyah, waiting for my beautiful Godchild to be born in Hong Kong, Michael and Ella's baby brother or sister. A child who is going to be a part of my life, for the rest of it, too. This family keeps me.
I'm waiting with Krista and Christine and Shelley, and all of the women whose adoption blogs I read, as often as I can. Even though I've never *met* you, I'm waiting with you.
And I'm thinking of the families I've come to know whose children are home, forever. To these women, both the mamas-in-waiting and the ones whose families are finally together... your stories, your every day, what we are sharing and the glimpse you give me into my future... it keeps me. (Thank you for sharing your walk, with me... as icy as it can be.)
Now, I hope that I'm not exhausting this whole, "this is how our adoption is like our pregnancies" thing. But, here it is, again...
I like how this (waiting) feels. I'm trying not to wish it away. Granted, I'm not looking forward to the swollen-ankles, none-of-my-shoes (or pants)-fit, having-to-pee-every-5-minutes part of the waiting (I know that some of you are there, both literally and figuratively, and I know on one hand, and can only imagine on the other, how badly it sucks. Hang in there, girls.)
In the meantime, I'm going to dwell on this
and this
and this
and whatever comes next, as it comes.
I have a feeling these two boys will keep me.
6 comments:
I'm all teary now.. beautifully written!
Thanks for keeping me company... and yes, I'm waiting with you as well.
That is a lovely post.
Thank you too for all of your support and I can't wait to hear when your "water breaks"!
Wow, I just wrote about waiting with you guys! Must be something in the air!
I am so happy to 'meet' you as well, and am enjoying the wait with you!
2009 is our year!
Your family keeps us too. We are so blessed that you'll be a special part of this baby's life. After my baby shower this morning, when I was showing the kids our gifts for the baby coming to our house soon...Ella said, "Emmett? Emmett coming my house?" A lovely post. Eloquently, truly Emily.
ditto - beautiful post! and beautiful babies!!
So I just got off the phone with you as you were bathing your two boys and here are pictures of them, exactly what I envisioned...They are Pierres through and through! Even though you are younger, I feel like you go through the "grown up" parts of life ahead of me and give me glimpses of what I have to look forward to. So as you wait in expectation of a new baby, I keep looking at your little ones that keep you busy and think of how exciting it is to be a part of a family of your own that you've chosen (Dave) and created (Theo and Emmett). I also loved and hated looking at your photos on the shape of a woman...You look absolutely beautiful and fantastic--I don't know any woman, baby or no babies, who wouldn't die to look like that. But knowing you for as long as I have and seeing the changes that have happened to your body, (all I have to do is remember your boobs flattened in that pump and it is enough to make me take out a restraining order on the Beave) , scare me. I just hope I can look as good as you when I'm on the other side of the whole baby thing. Hats off to you my dear.
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